I feel suicidal x?

i feel so suicidal! yesterday me and my mum had an argument over bedding and she stormed off as f she was sick if me and i got realy upsett for some reason and grabbed the shrpest thing nearest to me and cut my self! i havent eaten since either and this was 2 days ago! and today i was at the gym with her and her friend and in this tai-chi thingy lesson she just went off and bummed her friend and i felt left out and upsett and our teacher person asked if i was ok and my mum sed "yeh shees fine" when i wasent! and now i think my friend is trying to steal my boyfriend " the only person i got at the moment" and if i loose him i got no one and now i just feel lyk dieng! i have the most terible tummy ache i am soo hungry but when i look at food i wretch! and thats also getting me down as i need to eat! but i just cant! i tryed talking to people but they never help! if my mum ever finds out i am deppressed she will killl! she allways thinks i am being stupid! help x

I feel suicidal x?
Honey please talk to your mom or an adult that you trust or even me (I can help) about what's going on. Please realize that even though things seem really bad right now there is always a light at the end of the tunnel and believe me there are millions of people who have it way worse than you. Taking your own life is quitting just giving up and life is too short to do this. You have to learn to bob and weave when life throws blows. Be strong and take care. Please let me know if you would like to talk I personally have been through more things than you could ever imagine and instead of letting these things bring me to my knees I have allowed them to make me a better and stronger woman. Please let me know so I can give you my email address.... Stay strong and focused and please try to eat something it will make you feel alot better.
Reply:Get a grip of yourself. There is a way out of everything
Reply:There's ALWAYS a way out of everything! Just listen to some music, and think of positive things. Go for a walk and clear your mind. If you need any other help, just talk to me =)
Reply:I'm sorry for the situation you're going through; but yeah, you should go see a counsellor or a doctor. Good luck!
Reply:i think maybe you should call a rap line in your area and talk to them about how you feel. you should also consider seeing a counselor or a Doctor. there are lots of medications to help depression. as for the eating, try to at least get something in your stomach. without food, you have no energy.
Reply:wo wo wo what the hell


1.stop with the cutting obviously you dont want to die because you wouldnt be askin for help.


2.try and eat force it down


3.go and see your doctor tell him/her what your feeling and your situation and will give you some good advice


please stay away from sharp stuff
Reply:DO NOT KILL YOURSELF!!! This too shall pass.
Reply:Like you, I had many negative remarks from my parents when I was young, it could have ruined my life, but I didn't seek death, as often as I sought happiness.


I was shy as a direct result of my father being unable to praise me for anything I did as a child, any school work I took home was a waste of time, and when I started beating him at games of draughts (checkers in USA) he simply stopped playing with me.


My father told me other people were only after my money, but my desire for happiness had me pay out £17.50p for a course which taught me how to value myself, how to be what I wanted to be, how to be self confident, and how to be happy, I have never looked back since.


Seek happiness rather than an escape, and no one, not even your mother will be able to hurt you, when you find it.
Reply:hey sweetie, if things get bad with your mam just remember shes only trying her best, youll understand one day! just take yourself off for a walk or something or what i do is write it down even if you just rip it up and throw it away. sounds odd but it does work.


you do need to stop cutting yourself, its not a road you want to go down.if you feel angry go to your gym and kick the hell out of a punch bag!!


make your self eat! maybe a little toast, or some soup. even just a banana or something start little and try something bigger.


sounds like you need a few friends if your "friends" are fobbing you off and trying to pinch your boyfriend. talk to him about your friend, see what he says. shes maybe just being over friendly, but then maybe not!!


you can go to the doctors your self with out your mam, she doesnt need to know. the doctor is not allowed to tell your mam anything. too many parents dont tell their children that. if you feel like you need help, go dont be affraid.








if you need someone to talk to im here if you ever need to hun.


take care of yourself xx
Reply:I'm sorry you're not feeling too great.


If you're in the UK, have you tried http://www.samaritans.org.uk/


You can email jo@samaritans.org.


They are ever so helpful :)





Hope you feel better soon hun :)





xx
Reply:Drop what ever you are doing and FIND a number that can give you anon help if you can not see someone.


Then, you need to find a way to see someone. You're mother will not kill you. She will be upset or feel that is her fault in some way, but she will not kill you. And in the end this isn't about HER, it's about YOU. YOU need some help, not HER. Its a big step to take, but worth taking.


Trust me sweet pea, I spent 4 days in a psych ward over it. It's not worth it. Stand up for yourself and get what you deserve.
Reply:for a start You Are NOT stupid, go for a walk and count chimneys, your not alone I've got scars and fag burns on me form when i felt suicidal go to your doctor or hospital and ask to speak to someone if no one will listen, their are also community mental health teams. you might be looking to much into your best friends intentions, and your mother might not realise how you feel. befor going to bed each night make a list of what your go ing to do the next day and do it.
Reply:I do not know where your living or how old but if you are near to northants call The Safe Haven on 01536 461414 or 01536 397407 saturday to tuesday evenings from 6pm to 2am 0r email the safehaven@ntlworld.com there are very caring and understanding staff on hand to talk over your feelings with.


Non judgmental and independent of the authority. Self referral to them is the normal way.


Good Luck things will sort themselves out I am sure. Take care you are better than this you can beat it.
Reply:okay this is bad, but you don't need me telling you that.





you shouldn't be cutting yourself but you are. if you really feel the need to do it again, at least prepare some essentials to treat the cut first. taking the time to layout a clean knife, a cloth to stop the bleeding, antiseptic and a bandage will often bring the reality of what you are planning to do into a very clear light. if this still doesn't stop you at least you are prepared for the worst.





you need to eat something, so try hot soup or cup-a-soup, weetabix with warm milk or just some bread and butter. they're not that hard to face and stay down real easy.





ask your friend to back off a little bit, say that you're feeling very vunerable right now and that you feel she's encrouching on the relationship with your boyfriend. you're going to need her support and if she doesn't understand this maybe you shouldn't associate yourself with her.





as for this relationship with your mother, she needs to step off and realise that you have a problem. she's your mother for god's sake! she should be the one person who wants more than anything to make sure you get better. talk to her about all of this because she will find out one way or the other. she has to notice that somethings up, especially when cuts start regularly appearing.





lastly go to your doctor and ask about your options. there's no obligation to do what they suggest but at least you are more informed.





if the talk with your mum doesn't go well then get yourself to your nearest hospital. tell them you're suicidal and they'll put you in one of the wards. they'll also be able to make arrangements for you to stay in a shelter if life at home is too much. distance yourself from her for a while and let her think about how her actions have affected your relationship. if she doesn't come to you and apologise for making you feel bad then you don't need her in your life right now.


get yourself better and then start to repair things with her.





i had a similar experience where my mum told me depression was just my excuse for being lazy. i haven't spoken to her since the beginning of the year and although this makes me sad sometimes, i know it's for the best. she was constantly a cause of stress and now i don't have to deal with it. i plan to patch things up with her eventually but not until she understands what i'm going through and i'm in a condition to explain it to her.





oh quick question, how does your dad feel about all this if he's around?